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Archive for March 2008

The month of March has been the WORST in my entire 30 yrs.  Heck, the start of my 30s hasn’t been too great to boot.  Given all the crap that has been thrown my way, I am truly surprised that I have not been crying non-stop or more bitter.  In fact, I haven’t really cried at all.  Maybe that is the way I deal with it, matter of factly.  Taking all the bad and negative and working on those things I can only fix or change.  I have to say though, it’s been very hard to stay away from the woe is me, why me mantra.  Let’s re-cap the month of March, shall we?

I have a job that does not value me & I cannot seem to find another one.  I had a miscarriage which I’ll save everyone the gruesome details on.  My work notebook crashed the week I came back from the personal loss and I was without one all week.  Then the icing on the cake, our work cell phones are being taken away.

Here are some of the things I have said to myself to help me put things in perspective

~ If this is the worst, then I am very lucky

~ Best to have my body handle this naturally than be forced to make a tough decision or have a baby born that struggles

~  I have a flexible work schedule

~ I still make decent money and we are not in any way hurting

~ I just got myself a brand new notebook with all the cool bells and whistles w/no data lost

~ No cell phone means not on call 24/7 & my load has now lightened

~ My family and I are in good health

Repeat after me – I am good enough, I am smart enough, and dog gonnit – people like me….  😛

How’s that for staying positive?


I tried my darndest to watch Atonement on Friday with Monica and Brandy.  I think Brandy was the only one that got thru it, but I should get props anyway!  😛

I spoke to Jacque today for a good hour.  It was nice to catch up.  I honestly haven’t seen here in about 8 yrs, but we have now begun to talk on the phone and/or e-mail about once every 3 mths.  I look forward to the hectic lives we both have to slow down so that we can meet up again!

Typically, the entire Cox Family goes to Coronado Island every year for a little sun and fun.  It’s located right off San Diego and is a cute and quaint lil place to visit.  I went for the first time a couple summers back when Connor was about 6 mths old.  The highlight of the trip was Sea World!

This year we’re heading back in July (16th – 20th) with the majority of the extended Cox Clan.  You can make darn sure that we hit up the San Diego Zoo this time.  I was SUPER disappointed that we didn’t get to go that first year!  I am already looking forward to a break!

 UPDATE:  Looks like lots of folks are not gonna be able to make it.  This might not happen after all….  😦

We recently had our first emergency room experience a couple weeks back.  Not only did we not know where the closest Urgent Care or Emergency was, we don’t really know the basics of CPR nor First Aid.  So, of course, I scour the net to find the closest Urgent and Emergency Rooms to us – CHECK!  Now, I have scheduled myself into an Adult, Child, and Infant First Aid and CPR class.

The 6 hr class is being given for $60 at the Central Texas American Red Cross which is located in downtown Austin.  My class is on Saturday, April 12th at 8am!  I’ve done a class like this before when I was a Camp Counselor back in college…… yea, it’s been awhile.  I think the cool thing is that I stay certified for something like 3 or 4 yrs!  Yippee!

Side note, Connor was fine.  He fell off a chair and hit his head.  Head wounds bleed and it looked bad, turns out it was totally superficial and didn’t require anything but a good cleaning and some bandage glue.  Phew!

Since I am no longer knocked up and there will be a couple months before I will be again…..thought, why not knock something else off the list…..

I signed up for the Texas Round-Up 10k scheduled for Saturday, April 26th at 8am.  I ran the 5k Texas Round-Up last year, so I am not a stanger to the race.  This gives me over a month to beef back up into running form.  It will be my FIRST 10k, but I am not too worried….. figured I’ve run 5 miles, what’s another mile and a tiny bit of change?  I’ll let you know for sure come April 26th about 9ish am!  😛

Sad news for the Cox Clan today.  We found out the baby we’re expecting was never really there.  My intuition was right, I just didn’t feel pregnant and turns out I wasn’t.  Apparently, there was no developing baby just an empty sac.  Although we are sad, we believe that all things happen for a reason. 

We appreciate everyone’s sympathy and well wishes, but there is no need to say or send anything.

Don’t count us out just yet, there will be another Cox, just not as soon as we thought!

 So, I am adding #4 BACK to the list…..

That means, GULP – that I will start working out again… damn bikini season!  It also means I plan to donate blood in the coming months & maybe just maybe I can catch some air or do a lil bunny hop this summer!  Oh, let’s not forget about the running goals – can someone please tell me why I did that to myself?

101 in 1001 – Ongoing

6. Workout 3x per week
7. Keep weight below 130lbs
8. Use Teeth Whitening Trays
10. Volunteer 1x per quarter (3/11)
11. Prepare 1 new recipe a month (15/33)
18. Professional Family Photo once per yr (2/3)
19. Date night every other month (12/18)
32. Keep my sites updated (Facebook, Wordpress, and personal)
33. Family Vacations once per yr (1/3)
34. Monthly Pedicures and Manicures
37. Donate Blood once per quarter (3/11)
38. Spring and Fall Cleanings (3/6)
39. Donate items from those cleanings to Goodwill (3/6)
40. Use all my gift cards
43. Use cloth bags for shopping every chance I get
44. Read one book every other month (31/20)
46. Decorate Home for the Holidays/Seasons
51. Clean out fridge twice a year (3/6)
52. Clean out pantry twice a year (3/6)
53. Take photos at important events
54. Learn and keep tabs on personal and home finances
55. Monthly work performance plan updates (5/33)
56. Update resume yearly or with every job change (2/3)
64. Say a one positive thing for every one negative
92. Give Jeff and kids kisses EVERY day
94. Adhere to my anti-aging cream ritual
99. Wear something OTHER than jeans once a week (144/143)

No Longer Interested:
2. Attend said Church 2x per month (2/66)
47. Event Planner courses or readings
83. Spend at least once a every OTHER week on boat during warm weather (May-Sept)

101 in 1001 – One Time Event

High Motivation:
12. Landscape Front Yard
13. Landscape Back Yard
16. Remove Spider Veins
17. Update Driver’s License restrictions
26. PGMP Certification
30. Green Belt Certification
31. Repair Acura Leather
35. Participate in an Adventure Race
36. Start kids' College Fund
41. Update my phone and address excel spreadsheet
45. Appraise and insure Rings and earrings
48. Clean out jewelry box
61. Travel outside the US
62. Update MP3 player songs
66. Buy a safe
68. Sift thru mementos to either keep, sale, or donate
71. Try Snowboarding
77. Write will
81. Own a Louis Vuitton Purse
86. Actually catch some air wakeboarding
87. Bunny Hop Switch on wakeboard
88. Give Microdermabrasion a try
90. Beat 5k PR - 28:15 Completed: 7/03/10 28:09
91. Beat 5 Miler PR - 47:13
95. Get back to VEGAS!
98. Come up w/new Morning Shift Plan

Low Motivation:
9. Start Side Business (House Flipping, Event Planner, Book, Vending, Duplex/Apt)
15. Take a Spanish Language Course
27. Resize and Wear Aggie Ring
28. Attend an Aggie Bonfire
29. Attend an Austin Midnight Yell Practice
65. Organize my body & mind by buying & using a treadmill
72. Be an extra in a movie or TV show
80. Wii & Wii Fit
84. Play in Poker tourney that doesn’t include friends nor family
85. Poker moratorium for 3 mths
96. Get someone else to start a list
101. Visit Holly’s place when baby comes

101 in 1001 – Completed

1. Register for a Church Completed: 6/06/08
3. Laser hair removal Completed: 2/24/10
4. Baby #2 Completed: 2/09/09
5. Run a 10k Completed: 4/26/08
14. Take a Creative Arts Class (writing, painting, photography) Completed: 2/12/10 at Painting with a Twist
20. Register Connor for a sport when he’s able Completed: 8/12/09
21. Promotion or Job Change to do so Completed: 5/14/10
23. Find and hire a housekeeper completed: 2/8/08
24. Potty & Bed train Connor
25. Wean Connor from pacifier complete 6/1/09
42. Buy and use a PDA Completed: 6/16/08
49. Crown Molding in dining, living, and master bedroom Completed: 4/2010
50. Built in shoe storage in master closet Completed: Dec 09 as Jeff built them for me!
57. Visit a historical site Completed: 9/5/08
58. Visit a museum Completed: 9/6/08
59. Visit a zoo completed:12/24/07
60. Ride a train Completed: 10/11/09 Riding Thomas the Train & 12/20/09 riding the North Pole Flyer
63. New MP3 headphones Complete: July 09
67. Obtain concealed handgun license completed: 1/27/08
69. New pots and pans completed: 2/28/08
70. Frame Family photo completed: 11/08
73. Pay off one of our vehicles Completed: January '09
74. See a Play Completed: Disney Live 12/19/08, Dora Live 7/22/09, Wicked 8/25/09
75. Vote in the next presidential and local elections completed 10/08
76. Become CPR and First Aid Certified Completed: 4/12/08
78. Ride the Zilker Zephyr Completed: 5/28/08
79. Go on a cruise Completed: 9/14 thru 9/19
89. Get a Facial Completed: 6/4/10
93. Have 2nd Baby’s room finished BEFORE she is born Completed: 2/3/09
97. Get a massage Completed: 6/4/10
100. Visit my brother’s new condo Completed: 3/22/08

Supplemental List

102. Watch 1 Netflix Movie a week (53/143)
103. a canopy tour Completed: 11/14/09 for Amanda's 30th
104. Join the Capital City A&M Club Completed: 4/13/08
105. Attend 2 A&M Club events a year (0/6)
106. Have Jeff hang curtains
107. New bedding for Master Bedroom completed: 1/11/09
108. Kitchen Organization System
109. Be a mentor to someone
110. Do a family year end blog every yr end (1/3)
111. APICS Classes
112. Migrate Connor to new room Completed: 8/21/08
113. Update Workout to a Guest room Completed: 1/14/09
114. Office Furniture: desks, chairs, bookcases Complete: 8/09
115. Visit a Chiropractor
116. Get Moles checked out Completed: 4/29/08
117. ITIL Certification
118. Attend a circus, rodeo, or fair Completed: 8/24/08 circus
119. Create photo books once a year for great-grandparents and grandparents (2/3)
120. Update and organize personal cookbook
121. Fall &/or Holiday Festivals (0/2)
122. Renaissance Faire

The Bucket List

Things I want to do before I die
1. Ride the tallest Roller Coaster, Kingda Ka, in Jackson, NJ at Six Flags Great Adventure
2. Visit Redwood National Park to view the oldest and tallest trees in the world
3. Camp Yellowstone National Park in Wyoming to see the tallest geyser eruptions
4. Florida Everglades
5. Smithsonsian Museum in Washington, DC
6. Grand Canyon
7. Pyramids of Giza - Egypt
8. Paris, France and all it's relevant sites
9. Great Wall of China
10. Taj Mahal, India
11. Petra, Jordan
12. Greece & Italy and all their relevant sites
13. Chicchen Itza, Mexico Completed: 9/16/09
14. Statue of Liberty, Hoover Dam, Mount Rushmore, Niegra Falls, Empire State Bldg
15. Britain/England and all it's relevant sites

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